I'm Back

I’m back...ya miss me?

Last we left I was under a bit of stress more than I can or should explain.

Suffice it to say I burnt my candle on both ends until I basically was left with nothing but a sad excuse of a stubby wick.  Go ahead and giggle...it’s good for the soul.

Candle extinguished, emotionally drained, I was physically left susceptible to any germ-du-jour that came floating by.  I became the host of a week-long cold that was something out of a really bad NyQuil commercial.  I was so busy sniffling, sneezing, coughing, aching, sleeping for 6 days straight, I totally missed that fact that spring arrived.

The sun is out.
The buds are blooming.
It’s absolutely gorgeous outside.

I have been forced to learn along life's journey to trust Mother Nature and all her glory.  She continually proves to me that life moves on.  Winter will leave and the beauty of spring is guaranteed to arrive.  I get that now.  Change comes whether you’re ready or not.

So while I was trying so hard to conquer my world, my way; the world ever so shrewdly reminded me to s-l-o-w down and accept what is.

Someone once asked me, “Are you a good friend to yourself?”

My first reaction was, “Duh? That’s a stupid question.”
Then I realized it was a good question and I was a bad friend. I demand way more from myself than I would ever even ask from a friend.  I actually take pride in the fact I do that.   I am more like that Marine Sergeant from Officer and a Gentleman

 who pushes you to the limits of what you are able to do.
(Those of you under 35 may need to Google my reference)

Some friend I am.  I pushed myself emotionally, mentally, and now physically to the breaking point.

My body gave up and left me to battle my emotions, my inner turmoil and now the aches and pains of a nasty head cold with just tissues to ease the blow. (pun intended)

Once again I found myself looking out my bedroom window, not able to lift my head off the pillow, watching spring come to life.

By the time my head cleared, in more ways than one, I found my reset button.

 
I am looking forward to life’s adventure knowing nature’s got my back.  It’s okay to let some stuff slide, to not always know the game plan and to trust my instincts.  I look outside and see the sun shining brightly on Jena’s rose garden.

I smile and blow a kiss up to Heaven.

I grab my sneakers and decide to take a long run outside in the fresh air.  Don't get me wrong, I still need to conquer the world but I think I’ll stop and take the sights in along the way.

I can still do it all.

I am woman, hear me roar.